Well, yes, now that you ask, it’s sometimes hard to look at an editor’s rework of your work. Just as it’s hard to face a doctor and listen to him candidly and objectively debate your symptoms and give you his best judgement on how to treat a health problem you can’t resolve on your own, or you wouldn’t have asked for his help in the first place.
I’m in the middle of working through both editorial revisions of my next beautiful book and waiting on doctors to treat symptoms stemming from my surgery in January. Both, as it turns out, are equally disturbing paradigms. And for the same reasons, I’m beginning to realize. Because this is, after all, my stuff, and now other people are messing with it. I mean, what if I don’t like what they say? What if they don’t give me a choice of what to do next? What if they think it’s worse than I thought???
You know what these reflexive questions are? Simple, basic anxiety. Giving up control, and the fear of what’s beyond my hold. (more…)
